I was so afraid to fail. To be wrong. To fuck it all up.
I was so afraid to fail. To be wrong.
To fuck it all up.
It’s time to dream.
To allow.
To trust.
It’s time to let yourself really look at what you want.
Like really. Really. Really want.
The desires of your heart.
The ones you keep locked away inside where no one can find them.
Where no one can take them away.
I know.
I did it too.
Like when someone would ask me what I want. What I like. Or worst of all.
What do I do for fun.
I wanted to punch them in the face.
I don’t know.
If I did know don’t you think I’d be doing it already.
Why are you asking me these hard questions.
Or.
I would completely the other way.
You know.
Like write out your goals for the year.
Make a million dollars. Go to bora bora. Buy a fucking multi million dollar mansion.
Did I truly believe I could have these things.
No.
Did I think I could have them in a year.
Absolutely not.
Did I write it down anyway. And then feel like a failure on January 1st.
Yep.
Because the truth is. I was unwilling to be honest about what I want.
What I truly desire.
Because I was so afraid to fail. To fuck it all up.
To be wrong.
I wanted so badly to not be disappointed that I was not even willing to look at what I wanted.
Like really wanted.
And I truly believed I didn’t know.
So I started to be genuinely curious about myself.
I took all the pressure off.
I let it be easy.
As I was cleaning the house I would gently ask myself.
What do I like.
And just play with it.
I like going to the movies.
I like eating good food.
I like taking naps.
Ok.
How can I start allowing space for these things in my life.
I bought a monthly pass for the movie theater. (Back when we could do things like go to the movies. Now I have a big ass tv and HBO Max 
.)
.)I started taking myself to get tea or out to lunch.
I let myself take naps.
I started to dream.
What do I want to do in my lifetime.
What do I want my life to feel like.
Where do I want to go.
Now what do I want to do this year.
Not the crazy list I made just so that I could say...see I told you it wouldn’t work.
But the things I truly desired to manifest in a year.
And everything changed.
Money started flowing in with ease.
Opportunities started show up.
Life started to feel amazing.
I started to be happy.
You get to have it all.
You get to live a life beyond your wildest dreams.
It gets to be so fucking easy.
MANIFEST starts Friday.
I cannot wait to do this work with you. It’s going to be amazing.
I see you. I believe in you. And you do not have to do this alone.
Xo! Mindy 
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